Hola! So we should hopefully getting back to a little bit more of a schedule here soon. My world has finally stopped being absolutely crazy, so I should hopefully have a little bit more time to sit down and write some really good posts :) I was in San Diego this weekend with my dad doing some apartment hunting, and unfortunately the place I was staying at had really crappy WIFI so I wasn't able to write while I was there since I could hardly get on the internet. Apparently taking my laptop was just extra weight and one more thing to unload whilst getting through security. Lame! But, the good news is that we're pretty sure that we've found the apartment that we want to rent :) There are a couple more things we need to figure out and ask some questions about, but I think we've found the place we want :)
Next week I'll write more about it, but for now I think I need to hit the hay and head to bed. Talk to you soon! :)
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
The Joys and Nerves of Homecoming
Your spouse coming home from deployment is supposed to be this wonderful, fantastic, amazing thing. There's this big fanfare and this big to do about how amazing it is that they're finally home after being gone for so long and all this stuff... but what if it isn't that way? Right now I have extremely mixed feelings about my husband coming home. I feel like I should be excited, and instead I'm just incredibly nervous and unsure. It's almost like I feel like I don't know who's coming home which is a very strange feeling.
I've spoken to my husband nearly every single day since he's been gone, so it's no like we're completely out of touch, but still... I feel like I don't really know him anymore. It's a very strange thing, and very difficult to explain.
On the one hand, I am so excited that he's finally coming home. I'm excited for getting our own apartment, for decorating together, for shopping for housewares, for cuddling, for tickle fights, and pizza and movie dates, and going on real dates, and doing everything that we haven't gotten to do for the past six months now. I am so excited that I'll be able to actually call my husband again. I'm excited that I'll be able to have a legitimate conversation in real time and not need Facebook or Skype or something else in order to facilitate the conversation.
On the other hand, I'm absolutely terrified of pretty much everything that's going on with all of this homecoming nonsense.So I found out my little brother graduates the day after my husband comes home so I don't get to be there when he actually gets back into port(we live in separate states as I am still going to school near the area where we're both from while my husband is deployed) :/ I could go, but I also really don't want to miss my little brother's graduation that day so we've decided that I'll be headed down to see him the week after he comes home. I also have to get an apartment ready so he has somewhere to come home to, and it's just alot to deal with all at once. We've ordered furniture, his dad is selling his house which is currently where we're storing all our stuff so I have to move all of that, and I have to buy everything for a dwelling... and I'm doing this all while working and going to school completely on my own :/ It's really strange and awkward and scary and very overwhelming. This weekend my dad and I are headed down to San Diego to do some apartment hunting in the hopes that I can find something and get it set up and ready to go by the time Cameron gets home, and I'm just super overwhelmed with all of this. Dealing with feeling like you're re-meeting someone that you should know while also trying to set up an entire life with them is just really weird, and it's an awkward thing to try to explain and to feel in general. Hopefully with time things will get better, but for now it's just weird and slightly uncomfortable. My husband is taking a class on how to reintegrate into family life... Yep. That's the strangeness that is homecoming from deployment.
I've spoken to my husband nearly every single day since he's been gone, so it's no like we're completely out of touch, but still... I feel like I don't really know him anymore. It's a very strange thing, and very difficult to explain.
On the one hand, I am so excited that he's finally coming home. I'm excited for getting our own apartment, for decorating together, for shopping for housewares, for cuddling, for tickle fights, and pizza and movie dates, and going on real dates, and doing everything that we haven't gotten to do for the past six months now. I am so excited that I'll be able to actually call my husband again. I'm excited that I'll be able to have a legitimate conversation in real time and not need Facebook or Skype or something else in order to facilitate the conversation.
On the other hand, I'm absolutely terrified of pretty much everything that's going on with all of this homecoming nonsense.So I found out my little brother graduates the day after my husband comes home so I don't get to be there when he actually gets back into port(we live in separate states as I am still going to school near the area where we're both from while my husband is deployed) :/ I could go, but I also really don't want to miss my little brother's graduation that day so we've decided that I'll be headed down to see him the week after he comes home. I also have to get an apartment ready so he has somewhere to come home to, and it's just alot to deal with all at once. We've ordered furniture, his dad is selling his house which is currently where we're storing all our stuff so I have to move all of that, and I have to buy everything for a dwelling... and I'm doing this all while working and going to school completely on my own :/ It's really strange and awkward and scary and very overwhelming. This weekend my dad and I are headed down to San Diego to do some apartment hunting in the hopes that I can find something and get it set up and ready to go by the time Cameron gets home, and I'm just super overwhelmed with all of this. Dealing with feeling like you're re-meeting someone that you should know while also trying to set up an entire life with them is just really weird, and it's an awkward thing to try to explain and to feel in general. Hopefully with time things will get better, but for now it's just weird and slightly uncomfortable. My husband is taking a class on how to reintegrate into family life... Yep. That's the strangeness that is homecoming from deployment.
Tuesday, March 10, 2015
End of the Quarter Exhaustion
Hi everyone!
Apologies for no post last week. I've been super, super busy as of late, and I am experiencing the end of quarter burn out that every college student experiences around this time. I've also been working a lot and not really getting any true days off so when I'm not working I have school that day and then it becomes a day where I still have stuff to do and am super busy all day. In addition to all that(why yes, there is more!) I'm getting ready to go out of town with my dad next week to head to San Diego so my lovely husband doesn't have a cardboard box to come home to! Apparently that plan is not nearly good enough for him haha(please read with extreme sarcasm. I would never let him live in a cardboard box :) ) I've also done a furniture order and all kinds of other stuff that I'll hopefully talk about soon, but for now I just really need to focus on the other aspects of my life.
I didn't go to my class today because I was so tired that I was overly emotional(I *might* have cried because my cat wouldn't come sleep on my bed with me last night...) and it just wasn't going to happen, and I honestly felt sick because I was so tired and I still do. I've had an annoying headache all day, and while I've been drinking a ton of water so I know I'm not dehydrated, it's still there and I think it's just sheer exhaustion.
As far as plans to get back on track go I'm hoping that I'll have a blog post up next Tuesday, March 17th :) I will for sure be up and running again by the 24th, but I'm pretty sure I can make the 17th happen :) Just this week and next to go and I'm off to San Diego for a much needed break! :) Talk to you all soon! :)
Apologies for no post last week. I've been super, super busy as of late, and I am experiencing the end of quarter burn out that every college student experiences around this time. I've also been working a lot and not really getting any true days off so when I'm not working I have school that day and then it becomes a day where I still have stuff to do and am super busy all day. In addition to all that(why yes, there is more!) I'm getting ready to go out of town with my dad next week to head to San Diego so my lovely husband doesn't have a cardboard box to come home to! Apparently that plan is not nearly good enough for him haha(please read with extreme sarcasm. I would never let him live in a cardboard box :) ) I've also done a furniture order and all kinds of other stuff that I'll hopefully talk about soon, but for now I just really need to focus on the other aspects of my life.
I didn't go to my class today because I was so tired that I was overly emotional(I *might* have cried because my cat wouldn't come sleep on my bed with me last night...) and it just wasn't going to happen, and I honestly felt sick because I was so tired and I still do. I've had an annoying headache all day, and while I've been drinking a ton of water so I know I'm not dehydrated, it's still there and I think it's just sheer exhaustion.
As far as plans to get back on track go I'm hoping that I'll have a blog post up next Tuesday, March 17th :) I will for sure be up and running again by the 24th, but I'm pretty sure I can make the 17th happen :) Just this week and next to go and I'm off to San Diego for a much needed break! :) Talk to you all soon! :)
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